Everything Happens for a Reason

          “Sometimes the things we can’t change end up in changing us”. These words make a lot sense to me as I think about what happened to me. We can never change our fate. We all wanted our life to be the most perfect. But all things happened as he says. He has his plans for us for the better. But I’m pretty sure that He’ll never give us problems that we can’t handle. I just think of that every difficulty we’ll tackle have a lesson that we can learn from.  A lesson telling us “It is never too late to become what you might be”

                
           I have been through struggles in life that made me stronger enough to keep myself rise again. A struggle that change me to a better individual.

               
          I’m admitting I’m one of the bad girls in this world. But we all know we do bad things sometimes. Base on how they act in front of me I can say that they hate me particularly my attitude. I’m quite rude towards my real parents and hard headed in most of the things they want for me.  I’m also a lazy, selfish, and improvident girl. These are just some of the characteristics for me that was already stated in their minds. What hurts the most is that they never asked or talked to me why I’m acting like this. They just believe on what they see. Only one person did this simple way to me. My only father, Tatay Gil, who really understands the real me. He knows that I’m just tired to change things they were used to. When all this time of trying all they see is still the bad side of me. I’m just a person. I also feel tired somehow.

               
          Just like me, my father got tired of fighting back. He leaves me no other word other than “Pasensiya ka na anak lumalaban naman ako. Hindi ko na lang talaga kaya”.  This is the bad experience in my life that leads me to a better world. I’ve never dreamed of it to happen but I have no choice. Everyone will come to that point someday but not now. We all know it takes time to heal all the scars that we have. Pain will always be there before you learn to live again. It takes time to accept the truth and let go. But when you’re already done you’ll be a different person living in a new kind of world. This world give me ideas not to be afraid of change because of losing something good. Think of that you may earn something better. At that time, I realized me to pursue what I really want and start showing the right things they have mistaken. I remember what he said when he talked to me “Ipakita mo kung sino ka talaga. Huwag kang mahiya sa sasabihin ng iba. Ikaw yan at wala nang iba pa”.  These advice gave me a hint to start my fake life to the real one.

                
          I decided to release the real me.  To burst all the hard feelings I’ve been keeping all this time. To minimize the bad actions towards other people. To show that I’m not that kind of person and to prove that I’m one of the best and unique girl in this world. But not the perfect one because I believe no one is perfect.  I will change to a better one not for him, for them, for anyone else but for myself. Because I know this will give me a brighter future that will show the hidden beautiful part of myself that I’ve been hiding all this years. But just like I said all the things you want to happen take time. Meaning I’m still on my progress of doing it. But I can say that I’ve already minimize my bad habits. In just a few steps I’m done with it.  I’m on the half way of it and I promise I’ll complete my progress no matter what. 

         Now I knew my decision of changing wasn't bad at all . Though I'm not yet completing it I can feel the difference of before and now. For all of us, I just want to tell you that there's nothing wrong about changing. It may seem to be hard for the start but I'm sure at the end it will give us price that you've never thought. For all my time of progressing my goal, I learned and understand the meaning of this "Nothing ever become real till it is experienced, Even a proverb is no proverb to you till your life has illustrated it."