My Life in 3rd Year Doesn't Sucks

                At first, I thought my high school life sucks. Full of home works, projects and paper works. It feels like it will never end. No freedom and free time at all. A huge difference when we were in elementary. Maybe I’m not yet ready at that time. Maybe I’m not used to that kind of responsibility that’s why most of time I complain. I complain because the high school life that I thought has a huge difference from what I experienced. My high school life is different from what my family tells me. Base on them it is the most memorable, happy and best.  But my high school life is about work.  My high school life is just all about studies. My high school life was not fun at all. However, I think I’m used to it now especially that my 3^rd year in my school changes everything. Of all the year I think my 3^rd year fulfill all my expectations that’s why I can say my high school life doesn’t sucks anymore instead perfect.

                

              Being a 3^rd year student is the best. I can prove it and I’m proud to tell it to everyone. I’m not afraid what other teacher will say because what I say is a fact. A fact that 3^rd year life is really the best. We learn new things. We learn a lot especially in English Class. I learn a lot in our English Class. I’m so thankful I had a teacher someone like her, Ma’am Mildred C. Atendido. She’s not just a teacher but a mother as well. A mother who never let her son and daughter give up because I’m one of them.

                 

            It’s really fun to attend her class. You will never feel bored especially when she starts to give advices. You can really feel that everything she says is from her heart. That everything she tells you is for your own good. And when it comes to the way she teaches us. You can really say that she has her own style just like this blog. She was the very first to try a different style of having our informal theme. That moment I really told myself “Wow! She is really a good teacher”. And another thing about her is that she really reads our blogs or informal themes unlike others students does that. Other experiences I had with her are Romeo and Juliet, Jazz Chant, Radio story, the one we heard on radios and the Conventional Speech Choir. With all those things I learned a lot. I learned how hard to control everyone. How hard to fix everything. How hard to make one of those activities. But without those experiences we won’t be leader. We won’t be developed. We will know nothing. And with all those activities I knew we were not just students.  Because we are really a family who gives hand to each other.

                

               I can really prove how important and memorable our English class is because besides those things this class taught me to be real. The teacher who holds this class taught me to fight. Without this class maybe I’m still on that darkness. Maybe I’m still there letting problems took me down. Without her advices in class, without her care to students like me and without her love for I think we learn nothing because her sincerity conquers all. Her sincerity give students hope that when trying is worth fighting for.

                

              I just want to add something about the teacher who taught us to be a good leader and do everything at the middle of the fight. The very first time I met you I knew there was something about you. I really told myself “You are someone that I need. You are someone that I wish could be part of my life”. I’m not kidding Ma’am because this is the truth. I knew that there is something beneath you that I wish my family can have. I know you know my story and I’m proud of that because somehow you understand me. Ma’am I don’t know how to thank you. But I’ll just do it in a way I can show it somehow. THANK YOU MA’AM FOR BEING A TEACHER AND PARENTS SOMEHOW. I wish you will not change. I wish you’ll still be there for me even I’m not your student anymore. Your English Class, advices, teaching and you change my life. And I didn’t expect this to happen especially that I thought my high school life sucks. So Ma’am, I really had a great time in your class. Especially the experiences you gave. Now, I can really say my high school doesn’t sucks.

                 

               

               

Im Sorry For What I Did

Dear Mama and Papa,

                Here I am again sincerely saying sorry for all the bad things I’ve done to you. I know I hurt you a lot but then I’m trying to fix things up. I know how hard this could be but I’ll do my best to make everything back to normal. I’m really sorry for all the troubles and pain I brought to you. I know that I shouldn’t do that to you because you are my parents but I guess I failed again. I know I am a bad daughter to you but just like I told  before that I will change who I am just to fix the mess I made.

                After all these years I know it’s been too late but then I want to apologize for my mistake. I shouldn’t judge or misinterpret the sacrifices you made for me. I shouldn’t have closed my heart for you. I shouldn’t make you suffer this much. Maybe I shouldn’t. Maybe if  I didn’t do all those things everything now seems perfect. Everything may seem magical. However, I can’t turn back time. I can’t undo the past. I can’t remove all those nonsense memories. Because all those things will be remembered forever and the only thing that I can do is just to admit my mistakes and get ready to make amends with it. I still believe all these thing will be fix because I believe that “No act is too small” meaning it may change something. Even for a little.

                Ma and Pa I know it’s hard to forget everything in the past until the present but then I hope you can accept the apology I’m asking for you so that I can have time to make things right and never do it again. I know it’s hard but I’m sincerely sorry for those. I’m really sorry for hurting you that much. I am really sorry for being such a bad stupid daughter. I know I don’t deserve any from you because I’m worthless that’s why I won’t expect any from you because I admit it’s my fault that’s why I take the challenge and risk for my mistake. I’m ready of what could you do to me because I know I deserves those. I know I need those. But then I just want to tell you that I’m sincerely sorry for the bad and stupid things I acted toward s you. I know how hard this could be that’s why I’m starting to clear things up to you. Again, I’m very very very very sorry. I’m not hoping for a right away forgiveness because I know that it will take time to heal all the wounds that you have. I’m really sorry Ma and Pa but still don’t forget that I miss you both and I love you too.