Months
pass by but yet a part of me lives in the darkness. I can’t get out or better
yet I don’t want to get out. I want to fix myself but I can’t do it. A part of
me wants to but the other says no. I can’t decide on my own. I think I already
give up but still trying to rise up. I know it’s confusing and that’s the right
term for my state right now, confused. I want to stop this insanity and the
only way to stop this is to ask for some ones help. I admit I can’t help myself
so I decided to ask someone. I don’t want to stay in this kind of state
forever. Months are enough for the sufferings I had and for the troubles I
made. I want to stop the burden that my love ones had. I know that’s what they
want and I know it’s the best for me.
Now, I
finally had my decision to change. I ask the help of an American author,
motivational speaker, and publishing executive providing business leadership
and time management educational tools for organizations and individuals. I’ve
known him five months before now. His book thought me to change and be better
but it didn’t last long so I stop. So, after those months I finally had a
chance to meet him. He is Sean Covey. I know he can help me a lot and I know
that this coming years I’ll be a new Jecielyn Keith Acosta. We decided to meet
up in a park that is one of my favorite places that’s why come and hear the
talk that we had.
I
arrive at the park just on time however Mr. Sean Covey doesn’t arrive yet. I
waited a couple of minutes until I saw him coming.
Keith: Good Morning Mr. Sean Covey!
Mr. Sean: Good Morning! Just call me Mr. Sean. Did you wait
too long?
Keith: No, I just arrive a couple of minutes. By the way Mr.
Sean I’m very thankful that you accepted my invitation.
Mr. Sean: Don’t think about it Keith. Remember I made a book
to help teenagers like you, so this is not a burden.
Keith: But still I’m very thankful Mr. Sean. This is a great
help.
Mr. Sean: So, let’s start our business. Tell me about
yourself Keith.
Keith: Ahmm honestly I’m moody a person. My attitude is
always base on how you treat me. I really don’t care if people hate me but when
family was the one involved my world goes down. Everything falls apart
especially now that my father died. He is the only life saver that I have. I
don’t know what to do. I don’t know what should do. I have no idea of what will
happen to me I just go with the flow. I feel useless.
Mr. Sean: Tell me more Keith. Give me the biggest shot that
you have.
Keith: I lost the real Jecielyn Keith Acosta, the strong
one. She left me and I don’t know where to find her. I’m strong right now but
not as strong as she is. But in the other hand, I still do good things. I even
had a 100 % patience right now because I don’t want to be alone anymore so
whenever people judge me I just pretend that nothings happens. Mr. Sean it
hurts a lot and I can’t heal it.
Mr. Sean: So you are telling me that your life become worst
especially when you lost your dad am I right?
Keith: Exactly. But…
Mr. Sean: But have you ever seen the other side of that and
why are you telling me these things?
Keith: (A little bit irritated) Of course. I don’t doubt
that he died because we just borrowed our life and I know everyone will die.
I’m telling you this because you want me too. You ask me too.
Mr. Sean: That’s not the right answer Keith. You answer with
anger, depression, and hatred. You answer like a kid. I know this is hard but
you need to do it. Why don’t try to make it simple. Say what’s in your heart.
Don’t be afraid to take the risk. Everyone should take the risk so try it and
see the difference then tell me why you are in this kind of situation.
Keith: (Thought and tried what Mr. Sean said) I hate them
and I can’t JUST let go of that!
Mr. Sean: Who are they and why?
Keith: My family and myself. I hate them because they
betrayed me. I want to forgive them but I think I can’t. I hate myself because
I turn out to be like this.
Mr. Sean: Now Keith I want you to tell me again the reason
why you choose me to help you.
Keith: I chose you because your book caught my heart, soul
and mind into action. Because of that I thought that when I met you, you can
give me a more precise details and advice.
Mr. Sean: That’s what I’ve been waiting for. I want you to
remove the past. I know it’s hard to forget those things but as long as you
hold on to those memories you won’t be able to change yourself. If you can’t
forget those things just let go that’s the first step you need to do.
Keith: (Realized what he said) I’ll try Mr. Sean. Now, I
realized the things what you said.
Mr. Sean: Wrong answer Keith always remember my book. You
can’t answer I’ll try instead you tell yourself I’ll do it. Don’t forget those
things.
Keith: I’ll do it Mr. Sean.
Mr. Sean: Now Keith I’m asking you are you ready to let go
of everything that gave you pain? Are you ready to wash it away so that you’ll
be free again?
Keith: Hmmmm………. Of course that was the reason why we had a
talk right now. I’m ready for everything Mr. Sean.
Mr. Sean: In that case let’s start your renewal.
(Mr. Sean and I are walking in the park while explaining my
way to the new me)
Mr. Sean: Now, tell me which part of my book “7 Habits of
Highly Effective Teen” caught your attention to continue reading it.
Keith: Mr. Sean it was the very first part where you will
see a short poem entitled “Who am I”.
Mr. Sean: Why did it catch your attention?
Keith: It strikes my soul, mind and heart because the poem
says the same thing that I realize. It’s like I was the one being describe in
that poem that’s why I was eager to continue reading it.
Mr. Sean: Then, that’s your second step. Always keep in mind
the meaning of that poem especially the last words “Be easy with me and I will
destroy you”
Keith: I will always remember those because she already did
and now is the time to stop it.
Mr. Sean: That’s the spirit Keith (smiling). Now, tell me
the things that hurt you most or the things that bring you down.
Keith: Mr. Sean it’s always the happy memories that I have
with my father and the hurtful words that I got from my family whenever they
are mad at me.
Mr. Sean: In this case, what should you do? Since you read
my book try to recall my advice?
Keith: (Thinking) Is it Habit 1 Proactive?
Mr. Sean: Probably, but since that was your idea try it. As
you said being Proactive is the solution then do it. I made that book to give
teenagers a tip or a way to start but it will always depend on you where, how
and when will you start. Keith everything is possible as long as you open your
mind to everything. I agree Proactive can be but in case you thought of a nicer
one try it again. Remember deposit everything that gives you a nice opportunity
and withdraw the bad things that will affect your way. The past is just that, past.
Learn what went wrong and why. Make amends if you need to. Then drop it and
move on. Throw that voodoo doll out with the trash.
Keith: I really had a right choice to choose you Mr. Sean.
Mr. Sean: I told you it’s nothing I just want to help. Let’s
back to work (Happy). When you remove everything that stops your way to your
destiny, it’s time to be more focused in your goal. Prioritize it first before
you go to your second goal. No matter what happens don’t give because as you
said you are strong so you should be strong.
Keith: I already did those things but sometimes it’s not as
much as I need. I tried my best but still O’m losing and at that point I’ll go
back from where I started and it means I need to start again and felt the pain
I had again and again.
Mr. Sean: You don’t need to go back Keith you just need to
hold on. If you were in that situation think of a principle applicable in that
certain situation that will pull you back then when you’re back tell yourself
“I did it” because it’s a way to make your confidence and trust more stronger.
Keith: Mr. Sean I got the idea. Now, I understood why I
always fail to do my goal. Why I always
loose and just let go. I just to fight
back and should not listen to my thoughts that will make me weak. Every part is
now clear to me. I got it right now
Mr. Sean: If that so, it’s a good sign Keith. Try not to break
it anymore. If it breaks fix it slowly but surely.
Keith: (Smiling) Ayay Mr. Sean!
Mr. Sean: (Chuckles) Now, I want to give the last step to be
able to achieve what you want. Always think of a back-up in case you lost an
idea of what should you do. If in case you don’t know what to do press the
pause button and think of what a way to move on and when you know the right
thing continue your journey. But the most important thing is that never loses
hope, faith and love because it is the powerful thing that you can have. It
will help you destroy struggle that you can encounter. Always hold onto that
and never let go just think of that when you reach to the top you’ll get the
prize that you ever wanting for.
Keith: Mr. Sean I promise I will remember all the advices
you gave to me. I’ll do my best to change myself for the better. I’ll be the
Jecielyn Keith Acosta that everyone knows. I’ll fight until the end. I will
never give up. Never.
Mr. Sean: Don’t lose that spirit right now, that will be a
good start if start right now. Just remember the important memories that you
have whenever you lose hope. Try to imagine things that will happen when you
give up. Think about the possibility that might happen. Always think before you
act Keith. Remember you can’t change the past but you can change the present
and future.
Keith: I won’t forget any of those Mr. Sean. You had a hard
time to teach me everything. Now is my time to have a hard time in getting what
I want.
Mr. Sean: That’s my good girl (Happy).
Keith: Mr. Sean I have a last question to you.
Mr. Sean: Sure, my pleasure.
Keith: Why did you choose teenagers rather than elders just
like your father?
Mr. Sean: I chose teenagers because they most need a help
from others because they can’t decide on their own. I don’t want them to waste
their life in nothing. I want them to wake up every day with a reason. I want
them to have faith that God made them because the world needs them. I don’t
want them feel useless just like what you felt because I believe there will
always be a way to get out and be free. I also don’t want them to experience
the things I had and the things that other people had. I want them to have a
wonderful life someday. All of us should
have a wonderful life.
Keith: Thanks for everything Mr. Sean. You’re the best
writer for me. You taught me everything I thought was wrong. You change my
perception to a new one. I’m very thankful that I met you. It was my pleasure
to have you advices and tips. Thank you very very much (Hug and Kisses)
Mr. Sean: You’re always welcome. I just want to tell you
that whenever you need my help I’m always there for you. I will come in time
you need me. Goodbye Keith. I believe in you. I know you’ll get
Jecielyn Keith
Acosta back when time comes. Strive for it and never look back. Goodbye! See
you soon always take care! (Walking back leaving Keith with a smile)
Keith: Bye Mr. Sean take care (Waving while smiling)
THE END
