Im Sorry For What I Did

Dear Mama and Papa,

                Here I am again sincerely saying sorry for all the bad things I’ve done to you. I know I hurt you a lot but then I’m trying to fix things up. I know how hard this could be but I’ll do my best to make everything back to normal. I’m really sorry for all the troubles and pain I brought to you. I know that I shouldn’t do that to you because you are my parents but I guess I failed again. I know I am a bad daughter to you but just like I told  before that I will change who I am just to fix the mess I made.

                After all these years I know it’s been too late but then I want to apologize for my mistake. I shouldn’t judge or misinterpret the sacrifices you made for me. I shouldn’t have closed my heart for you. I shouldn’t make you suffer this much. Maybe I shouldn’t. Maybe if  I didn’t do all those things everything now seems perfect. Everything may seem magical. However, I can’t turn back time. I can’t undo the past. I can’t remove all those nonsense memories. Because all those things will be remembered forever and the only thing that I can do is just to admit my mistakes and get ready to make amends with it. I still believe all these thing will be fix because I believe that “No act is too small” meaning it may change something. Even for a little.

                Ma and Pa I know it’s hard to forget everything in the past until the present but then I hope you can accept the apology I’m asking for you so that I can have time to make things right and never do it again. I know it’s hard but I’m sincerely sorry for those. I’m really sorry for hurting you that much. I am really sorry for being such a bad stupid daughter. I know I don’t deserve any from you because I’m worthless that’s why I won’t expect any from you because I admit it’s my fault that’s why I take the challenge and risk for my mistake. I’m ready of what could you do to me because I know I deserves those. I know I need those. But then I just want to tell you that I’m sincerely sorry for the bad and stupid things I acted toward s you. I know how hard this could be that’s why I’m starting to clear things up to you. Again, I’m very very very very sorry. I’m not hoping for a right away forgiveness because I know that it will take time to heal all the wounds that you have. I’m really sorry Ma and Pa but still don’t forget that I miss you both and I love you too.