My All Time Best Friend

MY ONLY MAN

            

    I ONCE HAD THE BESTEST EVER TATAY IN THE WORLD.  He was a normal person with extraordinary abilities. His ways were incomparable with others.  In just one smile everything was alright. In just one word everything begins to work. In just one sign everyone knows what to do. But In just one day the whole thing fades away.

               

 Now, I’m still confused. I still don’t face my reality. I still don’t believe.  I’m still waiting that one day when I go home he was sitting and waiting for me. I’m still hoping that he was here beside me. But suddenly, all of them let go except me. Why things happen so fast? Why did they get him from me? Why him??? WHY????

               

 Back then, I’m Tatay’s only girl.  He gives all the things that I asked without even asking why. I love him very much because he never judges my personality. Everyone thinks that I was the laziest and worst daughter in the world but for him I was the most beautiful, kind, loving, caring, intelligent, and thoughtful daughter or in just one word “PERFECT”.

               

He never tells me what to do in my life instead he just gives me advice that supports everything I do. Unlike them, they always give me instructions of what should I do. They were the one saw the side of me being fake but in front of my Tatay it was the real me.

              

  I’m his daughter who loves to buy shoes and dresses. He was so happy whenever I wear them and walk in front of him. He always tells me that I was the loveliest model in this world. He knew that buying those staff were my passion and will make me happy.

                I remember one time when we will go to the mall but suddenly it changes. I was so mad and irritated that very moment to my Nanay because she promises me that we will go. Instead of comforting me I received a shout and hurtful words from her. I cried a lot. I felt that my heart will burst anytime. Meanwhile, my Tatay is there beside me wiping my tears and told me “Stop crying because we will go”.

               
He never complains to my attitude of being a stubborn daughter. He never told me to change that kind of attitude instead he loves the whole me. Despite of all the bad things that I do, the hurtful words that I told and the nastiest things that I do still he loves me for who I am.

               
 I never needed to change my life in front of him. I can express what I feel and tell the inside of me. Whenever I’m with him my life is at peace and happy. I have no worries and problems to think when I know he will always accompany me.

               
 My Tatay was the best among the Tatay’s in the whole world. Whenever I’m sad his hug cheers me up. Whenever I’m down his shoulder carry me to the top. Whenever I need a savior his armor is always ready. His love covers all my pain but I know all saviors get tired but how I wish I have done something to ease his pain just like what he did to me.

              
  How grateful I am having him because some of my family thinks that buying those staff was not worth it and just a waste of money. I never understand why they always think that all that I do was wrong. I was like their robots that should whatever they want me to do.  Why can’t they accept the real me like my Tatay accepted me?

               
 And last, I was holding someone’s hands. His hands never leave me behind. His hands never fail my expectation to him. His hands mean everything to me. But as time pass by, his hands starts to release my hand. That very moment I was full of questions but before he totally let go I heard him whisper “I WILL BE HERE”.

Tatay I just want to tell you this..

                 
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY FATHER’S DAY. You are the best TATAY IN THE WHOLE WORLD. No one can ever replace you in my heart. You would always be in my mind, heart and soul. I will be always connected to you. Your love for me is big and so strong. I’m sorry if I have no power to save you from the pain you felt but God knows how much I wanted you to stay. I was praying that time to switch my life to yours. You did all good things to be the greatest Tatay and you have never failed. I’m sorry if until now I’m still looking forward in our past. I know you want me to let go but it takes time Tatay but I promise I will because it will also make your life at peace. I have never told you I LOVE YOU. I was shy to tell you these but now I’m regretting it. Still you know how much I LOVE YOU though I can’t say it in front of you. TATAY I LOVE YOU VERY VERY VERY MUCH. THANK YOU FOR ALL THINGS THAT YOU DID TO ME. THANK YOU FOR UNDERSTANDING THE REAL ME DESPITE IN ALL THE PROBLEMS THAT I GAVE TO YOU. I can never ever forget you. All the things that I will do in the future is for you. I promise I will take the advices you gave to me. I will still do the promises that I made for you. My dreams for you will be built though you’re not here anymore. Tatay I know will meet again someday and I’m looking forward to it. Again, I LOVE YOU VERY VERY VERY MUCH AND HAPPY FATHER’S DAY.

                
 My life that was colorful is now dark. My smile that was so big is now sad. My liveliness in living is now changing to sorrow and my father that was always there for me is gone. All of this will takes time to be back. I don’t know when but I promise it will. I will do everything  for my Tatay’s happiness.

              
  To all  of you, Love you father as they love you. Understand them like they do. Don’t waste time just like I did. I have never show my father how much he means to me. Do the things that you need to do. Act as their daughter like they act as a father to you because you will never know when they will leave you in this wonderful world.

“DEATH ENDS LIFE, NOT RELATIONSHIP” and “NOTHING IS PERMANENT”